01-10-2010

What a Happy Children's day..

It doesn't make me HAPPY at all..

Angry, sad, moody, emo, blah blah blah...

Puffy eyes spoils my day!

Super CMI... thinking back Im actually very emotional?

I use emotions to control me instead of logical thinking...

I dont want to grudge over it anymore.. The more I tap on it the more angry I become..

I find it meaningless just goes with the flow bah..

This holiday have been one with ups and downs.. I want to go on a holiday!:(

Im turning 18 very very soon!

But my parent s still see me as 8/10 kids..

Locked me uo like a prisoner, everything restrict me to do! Curfew, etc..

I had enough of all that! When can I have my freedom??? roaR~~~

I wish I'm a bird

Flying high and far

Leading my own journey

With no objections allowed

I wish I'm a fish

Swimming fast and strong

Running away from weaknesses

In search of my strengths

I wish I'm a nobody

Not being heard nor seen

Leading a peaceful life

With whoever I may see

I wish I'm a somebody

Being heard and seen

Speaking with strength and power

Leading a TEAM.

More updates till I past eighteen hahahaha...=)

Carolyn Leow Manting is looking forward to turning eighteen..

She's not going to be the XMM she used to be anymore..=))

fading away~

*Dust collecting*

"sweep,sweep,sweep"
Have been leaving in my own LA LA land these few days.
O~mytian.. Exams drawing nearer.
Need to chiong so many things.
Abit updates about hols!
WILD WILD WET~ weet!
FUN FUN FUN!
Love ULAH-LAH the most!
Got a new part-time job.
Telemarketer ERA.
Job scope very easy. Call the list of ppl staying in a paticular district and ask if they're interested to sell/rent their apartment.
Normal citizens would pick up and scold u say u siao uh! I live until so happy ask me move house!
But a few would understand and treat this as a service instead.
I respect those who treat this as a service and accept and reply to my calls.
Rather than those who slam my calls super hard.(thou it's expected)
Recently, Im feeling very down..
I didn't know one random sentence can affect u deeply.
I apologised. But you don't seem alright in one way or another.
Calls were silent.
Questions left unanswered.
Somethings left unexplained.
I just hope time could rewinnd.

Camwhore~

Common test week over~ Got back my results~ Not very satisfied with my results. Im so gonna pick up myself and be more discipline! Spend more time with my lecture notes and not facebooking.. Maybe my results wont be a F and B.. Lolx~~~~~~

Been very moody these few days, but Im so GLAD those days are over! I'm left with SUNNY dau and probably some windy day! Lols... NO time No time! I got to finish so much things within these 2 weeks.. :x RAWR~

Before the hardcore study/work begins,

CAMWHORE

CAMWHORE

CAMWHORE!

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Ciaox~ =) *somehow I think centre parting looks QUITE style though!

first and the last~

For once I feel that I'm being so selfish.. I feel that I'm not discipline enough..

For once, I feel that life is so miserable.. Humans are so scary..(agreed by esther jie too!)

Sometimes I do stop and think about it, why I did sucha thing in the first place.

I sounds like I did something serious but actually it's not.

Just abit undecisive and easily being closed down.

This leave me in dilema whether to splurt out everything to you!

I know u dont doubt me.. But, for god sake I just feel that thr's a need for me to explain myself.

Rather than you feeling upset, disappointed, pissed off! :(

If only u can accept the truth..

If only human's aren't that complicated.

If only I have made that call.

If only...(It's all too late!)

I'm charged of guilt~~~~:x

♥

ROAR~

this week was madness.. Common test, study break, chilling out, slacking and etc~

But but but... Most importantly, I enjoyed my 2week break though. It's like a short! I yearn for it to be longer like SERIOUSLY~ I'm a FREE girl right now~No more lecture notes to read, no more homework to do for that 1 day, which is tmr and maybe the following day? Basically, enjoy my weekend before starting my engine again for the next phase of yr2! Can't believe, 1sem is gg to pass like a very FAST!

In general, CT was...... *speechless~

I dont know what to expect out of it! I regret not putting in my 100% for some paper! I felt that I didnt fulfil my responsibility of finish studying or more of memorizing what is going to be tested. But then, It's already over~ *Not point crying over spilled milk!

I'm gonna chiong or sem2 notes and really "mug" everyday..

I just flipped thru, it's alot! =D

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Time for bed! Shall post again when I'm more FREE~

TCM event photos..

Stay tune.. Cheers~

sigh~

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~

Life is so miserable~ I belief all humans are born with a GOOD heart! It depends on how one's uses it. If u choose to destroy it, no one can stop u. I just dont get this thru seriously! I really hate it when ppl do things w/o thinking! For instance, making up NONSENCICAL and BLIND stories! If u dont know the head and tail of the story just shut up and dont get involved! I dont see the difference in ur pressence. Whatever~ Pfffffffffff~

I did something uber ridiculous this week! Most memorable thing ever in my poly life! Sounds deafening and life threatening! =( whatever it is, im so gonna take a sweet revenge! Hectic week is over! More to come for the 2weeks study break! Reports, tutorials, test. All completed! YAY-ness~ Hahahahahhahahha!!!!!!! I need a break! seriuosly~ Im going to filter out ALL the nonsense and put 100% into more productive things like, STUDYING for CT! =D

JIAYOU EVERYONE!=)

will do a proper update on some other events in the coming post! =)

whatever~

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! Im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired pls........@.@
How I wish I can slp all I want for a day and replenish all the sleep I've lost. Reports, tutorials, eassignment everything bombarding me. Still got so many things to read up on. How I wish I have those smart brains. After one single lecture, every single thing that he/she is supposed to know are ALL stored and keyed in with password. Secured and cannot take out alrd. BLAH!
Enuf of rantings. Events coming up, TCM ushering. Fti and Sun. Gotta be a new experience hoho.. All the chinese herbs name all so weird. 1st time having a talk in mandarin ever in NYP.
I rather sacrifice a little and play in the future. It's ALL worth it! Strive on.. !!!