hiccups...

RAWR! It's only the 2nd week of school and I feel like Im steeping into the 2nd month of yr2. My notes is piling up forming mountains on my desktop alrd. Pack alrd messy again...Hais! Lectures after lectures, tutorials after tutorials. Though there's alot and I repeat ALOT of breaks between lesson, thr's no motivation to open up my lecture notes to really sit down and mug. I can sense common test coming alrd. I dunno why but yah!

I dont like my face complexion! Make me very sad whenever I look at myself in the mirror. So many dots dots dot on my face. I dont want so many singapore red spots on my face! So chou pls! Weird thing is, it's okay at night but in the day hais... Everything just dont turn right. All the dots just appear out of nowhere. Pffffffffffffffffff!

Im upset with myself. I dont know why Im like tt. I dont like myself. I dont like the way I do things. I dont like the way I come into conclusion so quickly. I dont like the way I handle things. I dont like the loser side of me. I dont like the way I treat ppl I dont like. I dont like my attitude in doing things. I dont like myself! Maybe, Im too tired. I dunno what im thinking too. Maybe after so many incidents that happen I learnt something? Or maybe im thinking too much. Hais..... I just hope that person change! I really cant stand it anymore! Hmpf!

School! Fun? Still okay bah.. I got so many things running in my head now. Dunno what to throw out and placed it here! All get sucked up by my comp like how the content of what's being taught during lectures get sucked up by the lecture door. Once we get out from thr everything is gone! Evon loves to say this. Almost every single lesson. Her favourite line, stamped!

Im thinking and thinking... Why wasn't the class informed about YOG!??? I wanna volunteer de lo! It's like RARE opportunity k!!!!!!!!! Damn angry and pissed! So sian recruitment of volunteers end liao! =.=

Angry also no used! Go BANG WALL LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BANG BANG!

Ready for School!

Im back to blog. School's starting tmr! Should be feeling very excited for school yah?? I just miss my friends and lovely classmates. Lols, okay by hook or by crook school is still the best place to hangout. Compared to the adult world outside. Work work, OP(office politics) and ALL. Som much to worry about. Drop that aside, a brand new start for yr2!
Summary of what I did during this short hols. Sleep, slack, stoning, fb-king, WORKING(80%) of my HOLS k! But im still gonna eat grass this month cos pay havent come yet! Hais~

Being promoter for ASIENCE! New experienced cos it's an individual job, so lonely can! Go work alone stand there for 7hrs and promote. Easy money earned though. HAHAHAHAA! No nasty customers met. Only customers who tend to ignore or "siam" me! Cos they scared I will "eat" them up lol! Kinda disappointed cos this job is meant to be 1 mth job but end up become 2 day job for me! LOLS~

Went for a 3day NTUC course. Boring at first but get used to it and got new friends. Hahahaha, I still rmb all the lunch breaks we had! The noisy ones. And that 13itchy aunty! I can still rmb her face lor! I hope she got herself employed already.

Back to work @ MAD. Dreading to work every single morning. Cos its like 12 hrs 9-9. Damn sian! But at home more sian! Go work slack abit stll can earn money hahahha! Not bad lah, just dont like stock up day. So many stocks lo! Carzy..Business that good meh! Keep restocking until the shop gonna burst liao! It's so squeezy until I cant even breathe! Sometimes it gets quite irritating when you're packing and "china" iddle aged aunties come haunting you for cardboards! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR..........I repeated twice or even thrice, If I have leftovers I will leave for u then u come take k! They cannot wait de, keep coming to me and ask me give them right NOW! Sian~ then whr am I supposed to find cardboards to put my shoes?????

Meetup sessions with sec sch friends, colleagues, not forgetting ms chong XY. I realised very long nvr meet her, something feels not right. Hahahahaha! :X School starting can see you every single day liao. Scanning system, gossiping, doing baichi stuff, etc! Hahahahha! Ciao~

Time for a Change

Change is revolving all around me! Im gonna do something for myself. A change. The last time and also the 1st time doing it. Wish me luck, I can see myself doing it And Im gonna put in my 100% in doing it!! As for what Im doing mah, It's confidential. Hohohoo!

This week was hectic. Work, work and work again. Hais~ Total MadnessZ! I met one situation which leave me damn paiseh siah! I was serving this indian customer(Im not being racist here!) then she ask for size 37. I went over to take then she say she want a new piece. I say that's the last pair no new piece. She shake her head. I was in doubt, she wants or she doesnt want? Then I ask: do u want this pair? She shakes her head again. I replied: Dont want? She shake and say : CAn I want! I was like okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. What the!!!!!!!! So damn paiseh plsssssssss.
Lesson learnt, actions doesnt always speaks louder than words. Sometimes it needs some speaking to prevent misunderstanding.

Going back school for some events. Main aim to earn CCA points hahahaha! My cca points damn freaking low man! Sian I wanna chiong and get at least >30! HOHOHOHO!
IMISSCXY! Gonna see her tmrw! Weeeeeeeeeets~

Time to get my BEAUTY sleeppppppppppp!

Freeak out!!!!!

Im posting to RANT!!!!!!! Ohmygawd Im super irritated now! I cant stand my DAD! I dont like being disturb when I'm doing my things be it important or just leisure I just simply dont wish to be DISTURB! Understand!!!!!!!! Urgh! I really cant stand the smell of cigar that comes right from his mouth whenever he smokes! Ohmygawd! It makes me wanna PUKE! EEyekkkkk! I just simple hate it! I'm being so selfish. I dunno why! :( I will always shoo him off when he's smoking. I will cover my nose delibrately when he talk to me cos the smell totally BBT! I cannot tahan alrd! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Save me pls! Im suffocated! Breathless!

I kinda find it real true. I'm so selfish. Parents send me to school and get me educated and now they ask me things I keep procrastinate or just simply answer for the sake of answering cos I get irritated. Imagine someone reading over ur shoulder. It's exactly that kinda feeling! I dont LIKE! Grrr....... Pls change CAROLYN! Hais...

Happy BDAE!

HAPPRY 18th BIRTHDAY!

Mr Lim GW! Touched not? Just a short post for you.

You're my 1st table mates on the 1st day of secondary school! That's so qiao pls.

Time fly so fast, we knew each other since 13.

Shall stay like this and keep in contact with each other.

A very touching note:

"They love you but they're not ur lover,

They care for u but they're not from ur family,

They're ready to share ur pain but they're not in ur blood relation.

They're FRIENDS!

True friends scolds like a DAD.

Cares like a MOM.

Teases like a SISTER.

Irritates like ur BROTHER.

and finally LOVES you more than a LOVER."

Have you ever wonder the relation btw ur two eyes?

They blink tgt, see tgt, move tgt, cry tgt, sleep tgt,

though they nvr see each other!

Frinedship should be just like tt!

Hope you like the present we gave! Hoho! Weets~

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Not forgetting Mr Lucas KOng!

Stagearts mates for less than a yr! I dint know he took my phone and self took his photo!

Taking my first step!

RARARARA! Tired like hell! I've been working for 3 freaking days each 12 hrs and I'm dying pretty soon! Gosh, how am I going to survive for the rest of the week man! Heng school starting no more work for me! Hohohoho! Excited yet not very. Okayyyyyyyy, timetable out today! Hurray, no school on WED! But mon and thurs school starts at 8am! FREAK! Pray hard I shall not be late. I've been slping like a LOG these few days and I can hardly wake up by my irritating alarm! Cos its so irritating, I turn it off and Im late! As simple as that. T.T. Im late for work today! Nvm, deduct 1/2hr pay lor! Im pretty much happy with my life except for the working part, which makes my leg ache adn its still aching now! Tommorow is a brand new day yeah!

*my mummy damn funny lah! She was playing hotel city(facebook) then halfway, she came into my room and say my hotel got cockcroach help me clean it up. Lols! I swear I laugh like nobody business siah! =D

Suayness~

Lousy weekend, Im in a super duper freak out mood while typing! Did something damn stupid, ridiculous and whatever u can think of! By hook or by crook, I spoil my dad's car on the most important day! When he needs the car at that very moment! I used up the car battery till it went flat and the car stay stagnant...Can't even start the car! I'm stamped guilty! I stayed inside the car for 45mins flat using up every single source of energy from the battery! I didnt turn all the way and start the engine thus this is what happen! Got a good scolding! I dont curse and swear back becos I deserve it!:(((

I swear I hate loneliness! I was left alone at this ulu place alone for 3freaking hrs. It's totally MADNESS! I long for their return. Luckily, everything went back to norm. Greatest thanks to all the caring aunties and uncles out there! Without their help, everything will be damn cocked up. And im in real deep shit by then!

Other than that! Weekends wasnt that bad to the extremeZ! Coming up bdae celebs for April babies! Including my MOMMY! =D

just thoughts

Well, fruitful public hols. I attended a inspirational talk from some wonderful ppl. Im very impressed by each and every single one of them who are AWESOME! They're young undergrads and some are earning 4, some even 5 digits in life now! When they're not in their 30s but only 20? Awesome uh!

I long to see myself like one of them out there. Did some meaningful calculation today! Humans really spend alot alot alot of MONEY! My parents biggest investment is giving birth to us! We spend away so much money even before they give birth to us. All the checkups till then when we're born. Our baby necessities, powder, diapers, bed, clothes, pacifier, etc. As we grow, they have to keep spending money to feed us cos we're too small to work and pay for ourselves. And here comes education. Mommy and daddy has invest alot for our education. They believe one with a good degree has a higher opportunity to get a better job and till then we can repay back all that they have given us from the minute we're born.

But wait! Start processing and think. Till then when you're a graduate and you have the ability to pay them, they're probably old. And think again do u have the money to pay them back? Let me give you an example. A graduate with a 3k pay per month. After CPF deduction u're left with 2.5k. Then, u need to pay the sum of money u loan from bank or ur parents CPF for ur studies in uni or poly. And that will leave u with 2k flat. Set money aside for your parents. Let's take it as 1.2k. You're left with 800bucks. Hold on, this is what u've left for the rest of the mth! For a graduate earning so little and paying so much, what's the objective of studying? What's ur prospect in life? Im stunned! Processing and planning..

"Success means having the courage, the DETERMINATION, the WILL to become the PERSON you were meant to BE!"~George Sheehan.

Im gonna change my life from this very minute. Nothing is impossible. Just do the extra to get Extraordinary results!